3rd person

What are we doing? Why are we being like this? Is it fun doing this to someone you like? just because we can't be happy, it doesn't mean we have to make everyone else as miserable as us. If we keep doing this, we'll just end up hurting our self.

We need to think about this.. should we not think about it anymore? or should we keep on doing this? We already know the answer to that question..

We are so fucked up man! ye know.. we're not even nice.. I mean we're not a bad person but we're also not nice. We are neither good nor bad. What we are is this.. What's this? This... we talk to our selves because we don't know how to convey our feeling properly.. I gotta admit man.. we are very fucked up and you know it!

People knows us as this kind of guy and that kind of guy but do they really know the real us? Do they know what kind of guy we really are? Of course not.. none of em knows.. not my friends, not my family.. especially not us.. heck we don't even understand our selves..

Right now we are acting like a fucking brat.. we feel like someone took what's suppose to be ours and we're too afraid to fight for it because we don't know if we have what it takes.. so basically we are insecure mofos?

That sux big time.. oh yeah.. before I forget.. the head aches that you are experiencing right now.. that's because you are angry and you're trying hard not to be angry.. you're also trying hard not to cry and be angry at the same time.. that is tough man.. one of these days we gotta stop acting like a man and instead start acting like a normal person.. I'm not sure how we'll do that but lets try our best shall we?

Lets focus on work for now... and stop thinking.. we're very sad right now and honestly.. we are very close to the edge of sadness.. next will be depression and that shit ain't fun.. we know that first hand.. we've been depressed before although nobody saw it.. but it's good that we got out of it before getting our ass in deep shit.

How does it feel now that we've talked? I mean talking to our self is not advisable.. so writing to our self is a little acceptable right? I'm not really sure... but I think this is better than going to a shrink.. and even if we wanted to.. we don't have any money to pay a psycho doctor.. we're freaking poor man..

Let's just end this pointless rambling.. I'm making myself depress by talking to myself this way.. Not being able to talk to anyone aside from yourself totally sux.. right?