Tonyang

I know you're angry right now. I know you don't want to talk to me because of what I did. Honestly, I was not thinking when I did that. I just did it because I felt that it was the proper thing to do. Instead of being jealous and create a problem for you, I just chose the easy way out which is removing a part of me from you.

Don't worry. You didn't do anything wrong. You're an angel and I love you a lot. When I say I love you... I really do.. I'm not the type to say these things to people but when I do.. I really really mean it... these words.. these thoughts.. they all came from the bottom of my heart.

Jealousy is a feeling that is foreign to me. I've never felt this way before and because it's new.. I don't know what to do. I'm scared and I don't want to nag at you.. you might hate me, but then again.. You still hated me for what I did and now I'm starting to regret it.

I'm thinking... How can I say I love you when I always make you feel this way. Now.. I'm not sure if I'm capable of loving. As I'm writhing this.. my heart feels heavy.. I can hardly breath.. it's probably because.. I want to cry out loud but I can't.

A grown man like me can't cry. I shouldn't.

I've actually planned my future and it includes you.. but that seem bleak at the moment.