Letter of Intent

Dear Ms,

I know this might be weird coming from a guy like me but I just want to write down in words what I think I feel at this very moment before I forget it (I forget things sometimes).

Anyway, ye might be wondering why am I writing this? Well to tell you the truth.. I was planning on writing you a letter but that shit is so out dated.. then I thought emailing you would be better but then again.. I have no idea what's your email address.. so instead of not writing what I'm thinking.. I'll just post it as a random blog coz I thought it's worth writing or posting..

Anyways,,(I'm starting to wonder why am I always saying anyways).. As I was saying.. You might be wondering why am I writing this.. well to answer yer question. I'm writing this because of my intent to ask you out (secretly) but then again.. it might be weird for you and me so I thought.. never mind.. I don't want things to be awkward anyway..

hmm.. I'm starting to lose the point of this blog.. but anyway I've got lotsa things to say so I'll continue...

I'm writing this blog to inform you that I like you. If you're wondering why I like you.. then I have no idea why.. it's probably the little things.. I like the way you gigle.. I like the way you make corny jokes.. yer sarcasm.. and especially the way you smile.. I really don't know why but that's the way it is.

I guest that's it.. I swear this sounded cool while I was still thinking about it.. but not that I'm reading this shit.. it looks kind dumb... well anyway... it may sound or look dumb but me liking you is the truth..

P.S.

If you saw typos or grammar error.. congratulations.. ye can keep it.

The Holidays and Events I try to avoid

Manligaw o Magtrabaho

Kung papipiliin ako, manligaw o magtrabaho.. ang pipiliin ko magtrabaho.. alam nyo kung bakit? Tsk.. tsk.. huwag kayo mag alala.. ipapaliwanag ko kung bakit.

Magtrabaho

1. May sweldo
2. walang gaanong gastos
3. walang nagtatampo pag na late ka (maliban na lamang sa boss)
4. ikaw lang ang iisipin mo
5. at kung ano ano pang shit!

Manligaw

1. Maghahanap ka ng babaeng matitipuan
2. Kailangan magpakilala
3. Kailangan din y konsidera ang damdamin nya
4. Gastos ng gastos habang nanliligaw
5. at pag naging kayo na. marami na syang ipagbabawal
6. at kung ano ano pang shit!

Untitled Letter

Hello November, December is fast approaching.. and I can't wait to end this year. Another miserable year went by. I know.. I sound pessimistic but that's how I've always been. Anyway.. I promise to start being optimistic once the new year begins.

2011. I'll bid you farewell in advance coz I might not be able to say it again.. we never know..

that is all for now..

Bruhahaha (one annoying night)

Yesterday, while I was sleeping, a strange person called me in the middle of the night (drooling was leaking and I was like WTF!) and when I answered my damn annoying phone the person was crying like a crazy person! she was like.. hel...ooo? paagg ugh dii kaa puumunta diit.. ooo maag papakamatay ako. and my reaction to this fiasco was "HA!? ANONG PROBLEMA MO? SINO KA BA? KILALA BA KITA? BAKIT KA TUMAWAG? ALAM MO BA KUNG ANONG ORAS NA? I asked 6 questions.. ye wanna know what her answer was?

Sino po ito? Asan po si Alex? and my reply was.. MUKHA BA AKONG ALEX? AKO ANG TINAWAGAN MO TAPOS ITATANONG MO KUNG SINO AKO?! WALA AKONG ALAM NA ALEX! PUTANGINA! AYUSIN MO BUHAY MO BUSET!

So what did we learn from this story?

THe moral is..

1. never ever ever ever asked me who I am if you're the one who contacted me.

2. Introduce yourself nicely

3. You can only bother me when I'm asleep if it's a life or death thingy..

of course there's an exception to this rule..

The people I love.. they can bother me anytime.. I won't mind

Thoughts

While doing nothing at work.. because of the damn PLDT connection going down and Smart Bro is fucking useless coz the pages are loading forever!

I actually remembered why I started blogging. My reason for blogging is or was or maybe is because I wanted to document my life (feeling special). If ever I die today or the next day or the day after that (ye get my point right?) I'll leave a mark in the world! (the cyber world) ever since I was a kid all I could think of was conquering the world.. if you ask me how? (no idea) If you ask me why? (because I want to). Besides.. Kids are kids.. and you can't get a straight answer from a kid.. now that I'm ooolllldderrr (really old) I'm almost at the finish line.

I still wish I could conquer the world.. but I can't say it out loud coz people will laugh at me.. or probably think I've gone loco. Perhaps I am or maybe not.. I haven't gone senile.. I can still work my way through it..(What the EF am I talking about?)

Okay.. I lost track of what I wanted to say and what I was trying to say.. oh god. another weird shit..

What was my point again? Did I mention that I lost track of what I was about to say and What I wanted to say? uhm.. we're going in a loop here..

ohh... it's one of those days.. my ramblings are becoming weirder and weirder by the day.. HOLY SHIT!

I have to leave.. I'll get back to yah... (I seriously need to think of cool titles)

P.S.

Thanks for visiting my brain.. and thank you for wasting your time reading my shit.

P.P.S.

(I have no idea what PPS means.. anyway if you found spelling and grammar errors. Congratulations.. You can keep it)

3rd person

What are we doing? Why are we being like this? Is it fun doing this to someone you like? just because we can't be happy, it doesn't mean we have to make everyone else as miserable as us. If we keep doing this, we'll just end up hurting our self.

We need to think about this.. should we not think about it anymore? or should we keep on doing this? We already know the answer to that question..

We are so fucked up man! ye know.. we're not even nice.. I mean we're not a bad person but we're also not nice. We are neither good nor bad. What we are is this.. What's this? This... we talk to our selves because we don't know how to convey our feeling properly.. I gotta admit man.. we are very fucked up and you know it!

People knows us as this kind of guy and that kind of guy but do they really know the real us? Do they know what kind of guy we really are? Of course not.. none of em knows.. not my friends, not my family.. especially not us.. heck we don't even understand our selves..

Right now we are acting like a fucking brat.. we feel like someone took what's suppose to be ours and we're too afraid to fight for it because we don't know if we have what it takes.. so basically we are insecure mofos?

That sux big time.. oh yeah.. before I forget.. the head aches that you are experiencing right now.. that's because you are angry and you're trying hard not to be angry.. you're also trying hard not to cry and be angry at the same time.. that is tough man.. one of these days we gotta stop acting like a man and instead start acting like a normal person.. I'm not sure how we'll do that but lets try our best shall we?

Lets focus on work for now... and stop thinking.. we're very sad right now and honestly.. we are very close to the edge of sadness.. next will be depression and that shit ain't fun.. we know that first hand.. we've been depressed before although nobody saw it.. but it's good that we got out of it before getting our ass in deep shit.

How does it feel now that we've talked? I mean talking to our self is not advisable.. so writing to our self is a little acceptable right? I'm not really sure... but I think this is better than going to a shrink.. and even if we wanted to.. we don't have any money to pay a psycho doctor.. we're freaking poor man..

Let's just end this pointless rambling.. I'm making myself depress by talking to myself this way.. Not being able to talk to anyone aside from yourself totally sux.. right?